There was a time when the family's future hopes lies on my shoulders. (Coz my bro din really do very well in his studies). I put in effort in my studies till secondary school. And after i went to poly, i am tired and therefore slack a bit and my results didn't help me to gain in entry to a very good university.

Then was the sarcastic remarks and comments that were made by relatives, as they expect i could go to a more recognizable uni and their kids were exceptionally talented or otherwise, excel well in their studies. Then there was peer pressure where my close mates - both matt n jj were able to choose any course in either Nus or ntu (as their results were remarkable).

The last blow was from my parents. My dad was exceptionally unhappy with the university i am entering and blamed me for being so complacent during my poly days. It was then a relative suggested that i take up a degree from UOL and work in london since some of my relatives are there. (which i think is impossible) My dad then simmered down and didn't say any insensitive remarks after that. ( or isit he talk lesser to mi therefore i heard lesser of those. lol)

Despite these, i still remain my stand and put up a strong front in defense of myself. As it was me who slacked and didn't put much effort in my poly days, who can i blame? In order to cover for myself, i said i am interested in business. ( as i cannot go to nus- food science) Truely, theres slight interest.

Then there was a disclosure of a food science course provided by a top university in Germany. Somehow or rather i felt dispersed and don't know if my decision was correct. I just have to go ahead and take a step at a time. When tests are coming, i don't have the heart to study, as i felt theres no one to slog together with me. i lost the motivation source........